In letzter Zeit habe ich hier nicht mehr viel über Politik geschrieben. Das ist nicht weil mir Politik egal ist. Absolut nicht. I did everything to make sure to vote for Bernie Sanders at the New York State primaries. Nein, ich muss sagen, ich lese gerne die wunderbaren Polit-Blogs von Gerhard Mersmann, von Robert Misik, und natürlich von Yanis Varoufakis, the sexiest politican alive. Ich beneide die Polit-Blogger, weil sie so genau wissen, was los ist, alles erklären können, wissen was zu tun ist. Vieles sehe ich so wie sie, und dennoch, ich zögere, dasselbe auch aufzuschreiben, oder die Texte zu rebloggen.
Warum? Das ist schwer zu erklären. Ich verstehe es selbst nicht wirklich. Aber ich fühle irgendwie, ich bin nicht sicher dass die alten Erklärungen von links und rechts, gut und böse, progressiv und reaktionär überhaupt noch funktionieren. Ich habe Bernie gewählt gegen Hillary, weil ich das Wall Street Establishment hasse, diese ganze Big Money Aristokratie, alles das wofür die Clinton-Dynastie genauso steht wie die Bush-Dynastie – das Partei-Establishment beider Parteien. I confess, I looked at Donald Trump’s rise first with anger and fear, and the more I saw the Republican political elite looking at Trump’s rise with even more fear and anger, I started to like it. Im Deutschen sagt man, klammheimliche Freude. I didn’t dare mention that to anyone. I sympathize a lot with the anger of many Trump voters, they share the feelings of angry Bernie voters. I don’t sympathize with all of them, no, of course not. But the most dangerous candidate of all was Ted Cruz, and his voters are more dangerous than Trump’s. So we should all be happy that people preferred Trump over him.
Now comes the difficult part. What if the Democrats dump Sanders, if they make Clinton the Democratic candidate? What will I do? I am seriously considering, I’ll do what I always did, I won’t vote at all. Fuck all those telling me I should even vote for the devil just to prevent Trump. But if I vote, I simply cannot see myself voting for Clinton. No way, never. What does that mean? Can you imagine sunflower voting for Trump? No. The mere suggestion makes me sick. However….if Clinton would lose against Trump, I won’t be happy. But if Clinton gets elected President, I will be angry, really angry. Do you know what I mean?
Angry at the Democratic voters who are too stupid to do what Republicans did: Throwing out their fucking party establishment, electing the rebel outsider. Angry at rich “progressive intellectuals” preaching that we have to unite behind Clinton because Bernie has no chance. I believe, Bernie can win against Trump but Clinton won’t. So many people hate Wall Street more than Trump, deep in my heart I feel I am one of them. My mind does its best to prevent me from accepting this feeling, tells me don’t be crazy, be reasonable. I don’t want this logic any more. I am fed up with it.
I feel if the liberal, progressive intelligentsia does not reach out to those struggling to survive, who have three miserable jobs to survive, who have no job, those that work for our privileges, they will be on the losing side of history. Rightly so. For all their university degrees, all their academic careers, they seem to be too stupid to understand how much things have changed. They think too much, but what they should do is FEEL what’s happening. Emotions move the world more than ideas.
I am everything that the Republicans hate. An outspoken, progressive, feminist, sexually liberated, non-religious woman looking at America from the outside. I should be the natural voter for a female Democratic candidate from New York, according to conventional wisdom.
I am a privileged lady, no doubt. A well-paid well-educated expatriate, no worries about my personal future. I love the extravagancies of my life. Yet, I understand, there is growing resentment among the losers against, well, everybody else, including myself. This resentment is understandable, yet it is also intolerant, violent, dangerous, scary. It makes me sick that it is Trump who has the answers for these people.
He will win against Clinton. Look, if he does away with political correctness, wonderful. Ich hasse das auch. Wenn Trump die Frauen beleidigt, okay, solange wir auch die Männer beleidigen dürfen. Aber wird es dabei bleiben? I am scared like crazy, but no, I won’t vote for Clinton. No way.
Yes, it may look I am confused. Probably I am. I hope you understand. Tell me if I’m wrong.